Need: Advice. 

How do I delve fully into my passion when so much of my future seems bleak?

I’ve always loved theatre. I’ve always loved performing. I’ve always been an artist. And I want to stand by that. I can’t see myself doing anything but my only passion, and that is performing. 

Yet, knowing that my profession could leave me in debt or lead me to only low-income jobs makes me wary about pursuing theatre. 

I didn’t like living in the city. I didn’t like the rude people, the dirty subways, the moldy sidewalks, and the constant competition. I loved Broadway. That was it. And I don’t know how I can be fully focused on my college major when I am constantly distracted by incessant thoughts about my future; my job, my income, my living, and so much more. 

Any advice would be great. 

Put on a Happy Face

The other night during my Oklahoma! rehearsal, I dealt with one of many incredible feats that performers endure: putting on a smile even when the day is not going my way.

As I stepped onto the lighted stage during “Farmer and the Cowman”, I realized that both of my shoes were untied, making it impossible for me to complete my tumbling pass occurring later in the number. I had to find a way to tie them before the big moment happened, and I was running out of time.

In a fret, I decided to kneel behind a fellow actor without her knowledge as there was a slight lull in the music. I managed to tie one shoe, but before attacking the other one, was knocked in the head with the actors behind, as she nearly tripped over my crouched body. Our actor instincts remained in tact, as we played it off like nothing happened.

I finally found a moment before a fence-crossing section to tie my other shoe, and breathed with relief. However, during my flip, I ended up falling forward onto my hands instead of sticking the landing. My actor instincts once again kicked in, and I landed as though it was the best flip I had ever done. Despite my anger and frustration, I plastered on a huge smile.

11:42 pm, and the director’s notes for Farmer and the Cowman were up next. Expecting a plethora of corrections, I peered down to my phone as my eyes glazed over, thinking how horribly I must have made it look. I couldn’t believe that when the director’s notes for the number finally began, the only words she said were, “Farmer and the Cowman looked FABULOUS!” I couldn’t believe it. The director, stage manager, choreographer, and music director didn’t notice any of my faux pas, despite my thought of a spotlight effect on my many mistakes. My continual portrayal of joy and energy helped to make the number fabulous, and I couldn’t be more thankful to have been trained to work through the pain and anguish and instead put on a happy face.

Once again, thanks theatre, for teaching me how to be an outstanding worker, even while I’m not having the best day.

-Kira 7/7/15

Soon Enough

All our lives, we are waiting for the next outcome. We look forward to something ending so we can get the reward we have been waiting for. For example, as the long school year is coming to an end, I look forward to the summer starting.

Why not treat this moment as the outcome? At one point, you were waiting for this moment to happen. As a little kid, you couldn’t wait to be able to drive your brother to soccer practice. A couple months ago, you were looking forward to being closer to your goal; which is where you are today. 

You’re always closer than you were yesterday. One day, there won’t be a tomorrow to look forward to, so why not appreciate the day you have today?

-Kira 7/5/15

Please Dream

-“I’m a Theatre major.”

“What are you going to do with that?”

-“I’m a Theatre major.”

“So you don’t have to take tests?”

-“I’m a Theatre major.”

“What do your parents think about that?”

-“I’m a Theatre major.”

“You’re lucky: you have easy classes.” 

For a long time I was nervous of telling people my major, in the fear that they would judge me as lazy, stupid, or another assumed quality of a theatre major. I was nervous because my friends are in accounting, business and the sciences, and I’m in the arts (dun dun dun…). 

However, I’ve recently realized that I don’t need to prove anything. I don’t need to list the immeasurable skills theatre majors obtain, or explain that yes, I do have to take math, or discuss how I should be allowed to follow my dreams. I can just be. I wasn’t put on this earth to explain myself or have others understand me. And guess what? Neither were you. 

Don’t let others bring down your passion, your fire, and your soul. Let them instead bring you higher, as they show you that your passion is unique and only accepted by few. You were made with passion, which is why you must reach passion. You can do it. 

-Kira 7/2/15

The Little Moments

In a world where human nature causes us to constantly want more, it is often difficult to appreciate what we already have: what we, at one point, wanted so badly. As I was driving to rehearsal the other night, I noticed how my left leg was resting peacefully on the convenient little ridge that the car provides it as the right leg is pressing the accelerator or the break. How comfortable I am right now, I thought, as I sit in this fully air-conditioned car with my left leg fully accounted for!

My run this morning, during which I struggle constantly, was brightened by the waft of fresh flowers and the sound of blissful country music streaming through my headphones. Even coming home to my dog wagging her tail at me made me perk up amidst my sweat and parched throat.

These moments get me through the rough or busy days when I feel like I have no time to breathe. These moments remind me why people cherish being alive. These moments encourage me to help others achieve these moments.

Find a moment today, among the busyness and the work and the planning, to breathe. You could find a moment that already happened, or you could create one for yourself. This is your life; why not better it?

-Kira 6/29/15

Love Wins

I am so overwhelmed with all the happiness around me as it seems the majority of users I follow on social media are proud to be an American this particular day that gay rights have finally been legalized in all 50 states.

Among the hate crimes and terrorist attacks occurring both in and out of the nation, it is refreshing to be alive during such a revolutionary day and living among such accepting and loving Americans. I know now that our nation is completely changing, much like it changed during the era of slavery, and will continue to change as more citizens begin to realize that #lovewins.

-Kira 6/26/15

The Key to a Happy Life

Once we pass away and our bodies are no longer our temples, it seems as though the soul completely separates as well. 

Yet, during our lives, it is important that these two halves of our beings are connected. The body needs nutrition to energize the soul with happiness, natural energy, and healthy thoughts. Without this, we store negative energy and hatred, affecting day-to-day interactions and eventually our entire lives. 

We must store our bodies with healthy foods in order to maintain a healthy soul. Though the two are separate after death, the body will always hold memories that only the soul has planted. 

-Kira 6/20/15